If I talk about not finishing my degree, I do have a tinge of regret. But there’s nothing that I can do about it. I cannot continue Chemical Engineering. Too stifling for me and I really cannot cope with it anymore.

After watching this really hilarious Indian movie called the 3 Idiots…. I saw this breathtaking view at their very last scene.
The scenery took my breath away. The waters crystal clear and so blue! I want to go there someday. Hopefully in future it will be more easily accessible to tourists, because right now, its rather difficult to get there.

Religion is there to spread love not animosity. But today, we actually see religion as the catalyst to war.
Out of love, comes peace, comfort and warmth, which everyone could have enjoyed, if the religious differences are just put aside.

I don’t know why people think some religions are better than others. I personally feel no religion is better. All are the same… To seek inner peace, to give love and to receive it, and to have something to believe in.
And I really dislike it when people are condescending towards other religions.

It made me wonder too, about things like why do bad things happen to good people. Why do things turn out a certain why?

The way that we did not want. Why isn’t life easy?

And so… after reading the book, here’s an excerpt from Mitch Albom’s book.

” I walked a mile with Pleasure;
She chatted all the way;
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

I walked a mile with Sorrow,
and ne’er a word said she;
But, oh! The things I learned from her,
When sorrow walked with me

ROBERT BROWNING HAMILTON”

Things always happen for a reason.

To learn from mistakes.

Because sorrows will make one wiser.

I have always known him as a happy go lucky kind of person. Although he can be a little crazy at times, but he’s no doubt someone nice to hang out with, someone fun.
Even when I went to Singapore to study, we still kept in touch. He would tell me about his stories and his many girlfriends while he was studying in US. Eventually he grew more mature, and no longer became the notorious guy…

His death, saddens me deeply. I feel as if life is indeed very fragile. I don’t even know what will happen tomorrow or the day after. Its shocking and saddening.
It scares me… I don’t know if I will ever get to see my loved ones tomorrow, cos life is just so so so fragile. At the blink of an eye they could be gone.

I send my condolences to Alvin’s family and loved ones. May he rest in peace.

Life is indeed very fragile.

Its been two days since I can fall asleep easily, without thinking much. And I am glad and happy about it. I guess I was really tired and the tiredness lulls me to sleep.

I really want to be thankful to my friend, who was there for me and listened to my grumbles and my many issues in the wee hours, giving advice and etc. If its not for that friend, I think I will feel worse. Thanks! (:

Honestly, I am mad focused on my studies now. The stress may be driving me off the edge and so I am not going to be doing any other things other than studying. As for now, I am totally busy and cooped up with work, and so pardon me for my lack of response in fb, msn, emails, sms, calls.

My insomnia is actually somehow messing up with my life. Well I shall endure for a while.. 2 + weeks…

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I am blogging now cos I am taking a short-break from my marketing readings. I am tired. But I still can’t close my eyes and sleep.

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So… at this hour I am just thinking about my life in Singapore and really… even though I am Singaporean and have spent 8 years of my life here.. I still prefer Jakarta, the culture, the lifestyle, the food. I miss living there… Hmmm.. even though I am getting used to Singapore and getting more accustomed to the geographical size, I still prefer Jakarta. When I just came here… I was bored stiff, cos there is nothing that I can do except going to the same place to shop, yes.. orchard road, bugis, cityhall, arab street.. thats all.

:S

I miss my old house. The garden. The fish pond. Its all gone though…

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Okay back to studying! (:

When I go back to Jkt, I don’t ever get to see her again. She’s living somewhere with her mom, which I don’t know… And we were’nt exactly that close, cos when we were young, she was already a naturally very quiet girl. So we didn’t talk much. But yes.. she we are cousins. She is the daughter of my uncle (my dad’s younger bro).

I don’t know if my contact with her will scare her.. Or she’ll totally disappear, perhaps she might nt want to have anything to do with the Suryas anymore. I have no idea. :S

Oh.. lets just wait and see.

But she’s doing fine and has definitely grown up into a nice young lady. (:

If you happen to stumble upon this blog… (: Well… Miss u! At least I do… No matter what happens, we are still connected and linked via the same bloodline. Blood is thicker than water or so they say…

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On a side note.. Exams are coming in exactly 12 days.

Jakarta 2 weeks trip in 22 DAYS!

starting to get the hang of it – jet-setting every free possible moment – ALONE! (: I used to hate being at the airport or on the plane myself. It scares the hell out of me. But now its better. My main fear used to be getting lost somewhere… and instead of flying to my intended destination I end up somewhere else. But pls.. if its so easy getting lost, then more ppl would just buy a ticket to KL and end up in LA. yea ya.. okay

off to study!

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b called last night. wahahaha. i get to throw a lil more tantrums as usual. yeayy.. okay kidding. going online now. webcam time. ^3^

Well, to be honest, I was kind of surprised to know that my friends have a diamond shop. So i got curious and I started digging.. (:

And I did a little research. I found out that Just Diamonds by DeFred has an interesting multi-level scheme. My aunt has a jewellery business in Indonesia and expanding their business to Singapore (Mandarin Gallery) and Hongkong – Frank n Co. and I modelled for her company, so I do know some stuff abt jewellery, diamonds, 4Cs and etc..

But I have never ever heard of such an interesting MLM scheme. I must say the founders of of DeFred deserve a thumbs up. Based on marketing strategies, they did extremely well.. And to get young adults as their franchise associates is a good thing. Well to be honest, despite the lack of spending power for a number of young adults, but young adults are the fresh blood. the creative people – we’ll see how things go. (: Its an unusual demographic yes.. but who knows the risk pays off. will keep a look out for this company and see how things turn out. it sure is unique and interesting. (:

I am doing marketing module now, so in a way… I understand a little bit more abt their scheme.

Oh btw, I am in no way connected to Just Diamonds by DeFred. I just find their MLM scheme interesting.

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On a side note,  I was pretty annoyed at b.

I am still seething with anger. heeh. Its bad enough that we’re far apart and they way his time allocation for ME is just not enough. hmph. I shall pout at one corner.

I am not asking for flowers or chocolates sent over. Like Pst Kong preached, females want ATTENTION! Guys dont forget its with a BIG A. Not that I am a super-duper desperate for attention, but it annoys me that whenever I am talking to him on the phone, and then i get the few word replies.. and thats not cos he ran out of word quota for the day, but he was multi-tasking – BBing to be exact. which annoys me.And I only get to speak to him about 30 minutes, and it annoys me when he is unresponsive or replies with.. “uh hmmm… ohh.. ahhh.. and then…” so obvious that he’s doing other things.FEMALE INSTINCTS tell me so.. I mean we’ve been together for over a year, so I know what he is like when he’s doing other things.

When he’s multi-tasking and needs to get off the phone.. he will tell me to shower or go n sleep or study.. or etc. which is so obvious.. telling me to do my stuff so he can do his stuff. UGHHH!

(((((

Okay I am an attention-seeker whatever. I admit it.

Is 30 minutes too much to ask? I mean he’s busy working all day…. and we don’t even sms throughout much the day, cos when I do.. he replies really SLOW as he’s busy with clients and yadaa yadaa….

YES! I am complaining. I am ranting. I need to get this off my chest cos I keep thinking about it.

And his sorry did not work. Cos I am still MAD at him.

LADIES DON’T  YOU ALL AGREE… WE WANT UNDIVIDED ATTENTION. EVEN IF ITS FOR 30 MINUTES?

Grrrr…

i am one grumpy girl. *sulks at one corner* hehehehe

Anyway i just finished watching this show called the God of study. its actually pretty good. by watching the drama itself, it has many study tips that are useful and good and it motivates me to study too! (:

so anyway.. there are a few things that bothered me abt the show. well basically the ending was crappy. it was so weird. the Attorney who have always been aloof, gave the weirdest smile ever. i know the smile meant a joyous and happy one.. but it looked creepy. :S

and the weird thing is.. the top university of korea has no medical school. like its totally out of this world… so basically i did a research.. and most of the top universities HAVE a medical school. so the show doesnt make sense again.

and i also dont understand why suddenly an attorney takes over the school and started ruling the students as if they are in an army concentration. well the attorney has good intentions.. but if its my school and some random attorney takes over my school, i won’t even want to listen to him.. what does an attorney have to do with education anyways?? o.O

Crazy show. but has good take-aways.

still kinda upset over ytd.

packing my stuff for school and my breakfast as well – last nite’s sarpino’s. gonna heat it up!

really need to save money… i took cab, twice last on sat n sunday. not good. need to save up. i think i spend most of my money on cab. cab drivers are getting richer by the day.